Spiritual Side

I've been drawn to my spiritual side the past while. Actually, for the past few years. It is something I have resisted, I think due to a negative association I've had with 'church' since childhood. I was raised in a strict Baptist home and my parents went to a Missionary Baptist church - yes, in the heart of urban Canada the church was a missionary church from the main congregation located in Texas. It has always seemed odd to me that a North American missionary church would send resources to Canada ... however, this is not the point of this post so I will leave that aside. Now I really did like the pastor of the church - he was a good man and very likable but I never felt any kinship to the teachings of the Baptist church - especially such a fundamentalist church such as I was forced to attend. I rebelled as soon as I was able and thought that was the end of it for me. But I now feel drawn to spirituality. So my exploration has begun. I think this started several years ago and I noticed it particularly during my visits to London. The churches in London are amazing. Not just the well known and spectacular churches such at Westminster Abbey or St Paul but the small churches in the City of London. In the very small business core (the proper 'City of London') there are something like 50 churches - many designed by Christopher Wren. During one trip I think I went to 30 or more of these churches. Sometimes to just sit and take in the lovely, peaceful atmosphere and others to attend either a concert or service. I've wondered if this is why I feel such a strong draw to London - for the churches. Had my family not left England a few hundred years ago, I would have been raised Anglican which is the denomination of the London Churches I visit. I have gone to several church services in Toronto over the Christmas season. It feels right to me to be in church. I don't know how far into the doctrine I feel like going at present but I feel drawn to the atmosphere. So far each time I've gone, I have gone to a different church - I do think once I find one where I feel at home that I might start regular attendance. I haven't completely sorted through what I am looking for in the experience or even if it is traditional church that I am looking for - it could be a Buddhist temple or Yoga Ashram will be my choice. I feel I'm on the right track in starting the exploration though.

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