It has been a week now since J & I broke up. I have been up and down - mostly up. He has been out of town for two weeks now - would be leaving to come drive home today or tomorrow. That is a bit strange as well - the whole thing feels unreal. I am not sure why it should make a difference to me but I will be glad when he is back in town. I've had a pretty good week - apart from some lost sleep. I also lost a few pounds - not sure how many, but enough to get back into a size 6. I'm back to my marathon training weight - a weight I hadn't seen in 5 years at least. The weight loss was not on purpose but losing your appetite makes it much easier than the traditional method of weight loss. I celebrated by buying some fantastic new jeans today. I also had a lunch date today .... not sure what I think. We had a nice time - he is older, European and looks like Donald Sutherland. Very nice manners and flirts a lot - flirts with his eyes in a very nice way. We don't have a lot in common though - maybe that is a good thing. What I like most about him is his warmth. So we'll see. I will see him perhaps on Sunday as well.
This is all helping me feel better about the situation. I know I am a little more upset than I'll admit. I just don't want to care.
I've started going back to the gym more regularly again - my sprained ankle is on the mend. Still a few weeks off from skiing or running outside I think.
Atta girl, you'll be fine and you're better off in the long run rather than letting a nowheres relationship go on too long. Though it's horrid the way it happened, I'm sure you gave him the vibes about not loving him and he acted on that. This new fella sounds very interesting, and more so because there are different interests. Sometimes that does work out for the best, especially in a new relationship. Have fun!
Posted by: susan | December 17, 2005 at 01:27 PM
I have no words of wisdom to give you Wendy, but I am cheering you on from the sidelines. You go girl! :-)
Posted by: Cindy | December 18, 2005 at 12:35 PM