More Therapy

It feels strange to be posting frequently again ..... I spent the day yesterday with a close friend of mine I have known him for years - he was my Project Manager when we worked in Trinidad together many years ago. Strangely, I made a typo on the word 'years' in the previous sentence - until corrected it was 'tears'. Which was even more true - we have known each other through many tears - on both our sides. He has been struggling with a severe drug addiction for years. I've known him since the outset of that. I think his years of counselling have made him quite a good counsellor. I woke up feeling really great today. I've gotten some clarity. I can see that J's withholding that he was still in love with the ex-girlfriend made it impossible to have any emotional content to our conversations - he had to keep them impersonal - it got too close the the truth. The truth that he thought would send me running. It did no matter what. It always catches up. And I should have looked for more content - tried harder to get those conversations going. If you're not having those conversations, there is a reason.