I'm so thankful I have my friends .... those here in cyberspace as well as the local ones. (I know some of you in both ways) I've had a great day today. Talked to my friend G in Halifax for some good down to earth perspectives. Went for a long walk in the snow. Another friend took the train out from Toronto for a nice long visit. I had a full day of therapy with him - I mean therapy literally - he certainly put me through my paces on this situation and I needed to hear some of those difficult truths. I dropped him off at the train station and went to have a fabulous dinner with another friend. Came home to lovely emails and comments on my blog. The absolutely best part of my life is my friends. I say that over and over again and it always holds true. Boyfriends come and go but friends are there forever.
I feel pretty positive. I realize part of my dismay in this situation was that I found out at the end of a week where I had been kept waiting - he knew it was over had not told me and had not communicated after the road trip. I was tense as a result. That news added to that state of mind was a lot. Had I found out in normal communication I think it would have been less of a shock. I feel not too bad right now. I have been making plans and have things to look forward to - that helps. And it really does help to use this as an outlet here.
I have to say my biggest complaint about men is their witholding to "spare" us the hurt. Stuipid, since the hurt winds up building more in the dismissals, avoidance, lies, withdrawl. It makes me laugh that they think we are these fragile creatures and yet they are the ones who don't face issues and act like cowards. Speaking from my own experiences of course. Glad you're feeling better!
Posted by: Barb | December 12, 2005 at 09:25 AM